been working and working and working.. and yea by filling up my schedules with work and work and work will grant me no time to ponder and wonder.. sometimes things need time to be worked out. after all im one who paints the town red every now and then.. with the hope this will keep me mentally occupied.. apparently it fails me as i cant gouge out any bit of interest for enjoyment.. bud its ok i m mature enough to keep my emotions in check.. as there is no point fretting over something beyond my control.. so lets just sit back and look at the situation as i m cool with watever outcome that might surfaced in the near future.. well at least for now haha who noes i might jus lose it when reality comes striking me hard and painfully.. well lets juz look on the bright side man cos i dun fucking believe that emotions can ever dominate me for more then a mere 24hrs.. gotta prove me wrong perhaps.. been living for 2 decades, seen and experienced quite a handful of things kinda numb with shits at times.. so lets jus treasure and enjoy moments we had and will be having while leaving the rest to the hands of fate.. reality is cruel huh.. life belong 100% to you yet you control pretty much half of it only haha ok la fucking off to my bed liao..
