Had just attended my classmates' graduation today, haiz during the occasion my mood suddenly came to a downcast. Viewing the video at the start had brought me back to the time when i juz stepped into poly, filled with adrenaline, I wanted to graduate after 3 years with merit. Therefore I was always early for class and always hand in my jobs done to the highest standard.. However my enthusiasm dun seems to last long, after the first sem my grades started to hit rock bottom but still i managed to pass.. It was during the 2nd year where i saw the flaws of tertiary system and started skipping classes just to have fun outside, soon my attendance followed my results to rock bottom but still i managed to scrap pass the first sem of 2nd year.. It was in the following sem which took my education life to a downturn. I failed 2 modules.. Thinking that i could easily overload them in the next few sems, I did not even bat an eyelid. Subsequently, i was debarred from my 3rd module due to poor attendance and was deprived the chance of taking my FYP with my peers.. Knowing that staying back for at least half a sem was inevitable, I struggled to put my poly life back on path just with the mere hope of leaving sch within 3 and a half years.. Yea i did it.. i passed all my modules during the last sem which left me onli 2 modules and a FYP. I was overwhelmed by the fact that i just have to stay back for half a year more when i saw that i was enrolled into 2 modules and the FYP, however my overwhelmness was short lived.. My mentor informed me that i will be having a full 4th year as the course team dun allow me to overload.. Haiz almost broke into tears at that time but i know tat its redundant to do so therefore i held it back.. then today during th graduation i saw all of my fellowmates getting their rightfully deserved diploma over the hands of our director, i cant help but to feel envious and hateful of my acts in the past which left me as what i am now.. Feeling emotional at that point and kinda feel ashame of myself as ppl are aiming for new heights while i will be satisfied by an easily obtained borderline pass. which i din managed to get anyway... Anyway i wished all of my graduated frens the best they can get.. Thank them for their continuous help for me whenever i needed assistance.. Thanks guys.. all the best